Open Up Your Heart

If this were the first time, the second or the third,

Then maybe I’d be able to give you what you need

But since this is a losing battle that I no longer wish to fight

And so I am ready to whisper one final goodbye.

I gave you the option of walking straight into my life

But time and time again you have proven me wrong

I should never have even invited you in here

If only I could have known all that it would bring.

My first expectations and the results I have gotten

Have proven my innocence and my simple misunderstanding

I guess that maybe you could blame me a bit

But the bulk of this hurt was never my fault.

Since when has it become a crime to open up your heart

To give someone that you love almost everything that is yours

And was it so wrong to expect a little in return

Maybe that was my downfall after all.

Although it hurts more than you could imagine

It’s time to put my needs before yours

For years I have given you everything in me

And now it’s time for it all to be returned.

I really am sorry for the pain this might cause

Please know that I do not intend to do so

But perhaps it will result from the truth

Please forgive me when I say that I am finally over you.

The Loving Hatred

The lonely stair that leads to absolutely nowhere and yet manages to lead everywhere.

An endless list of possibilities and each one is a s possible as the next

Leading to the darkest light that was ever imaginable, too bright to see the way.

The pleasurely pain that is hate, yet welcomed, bringing me down to reality.

The motionless heartbeat, immobile without you, yet it cannot work with you.

The sorrowless pity that I can feel, radiating off of you inner soul.

The loving hatred shared between us is clearly marked  on our blank faces

And my feeling for you will be evident for never ever after.