Regret

I smile and act like I’m okay

And every day I silently pray

That I will come out even stronger

Than when I first began to wonder

I lost my way once, a long time ago

Since then I’ve drowned in sorrow

That I never tried to give my all

That is where I began to fall

I am sorry that I have disappointed you

I don’t know what is left for me to do

I’ll never be anyone’s idea of perfection

I know that every time I see my reflection

Believe me, this was not what I wanted

I never thought I would feel this hunted

And I’m sorry that I have let you down

I wish it could be different some how

It pains me to write this, more than you’ll know

I cannot seem to find the words that could show

How much it truly kills me inside

To know how much I have lied

I promise you, it was for the best

I hope that you will find your rest

Without me haunting you always

Without me hurting you for days

I’m sorry that I could never stand

To be one of the mighty or the grand

And I have held you back for too long

I will leave you with one last song

I hope that it will prove my love for you

Although I could never truly show you

I’m sorry that I have been so pathetic

It seems our love was anti-magnetic

Just know that if I had made a connection

I would have made it beyond perfection

But if the truth could have been told

You are not the one I wished to hold

I guess the point I am making

Is I was never for the taking

And now my eyes have been opened so wide

I wish I was with you and every night I cry

I trust that you are safe without me

And wish that together, we could be

I miss you every day and every night

And always, I’ll regret taking flight.