Non-Conformist Lover

Being a sixteen year old girl there are many clichés that go through my mind on a daily basis; my weight, fashion, celebrity gossip and most importantly, boys. Now those people who have read my poems or short stories will know that I am completely in love with the idea of being in love. But just so that the people who don’t know me know, I have actually never been in a relationship before. How’s that - A sixteen year old in this modern-day society who has never been a relationship and has never been kissed by a boy. Hard to believe that those types of people still exist…

Whenever we are told to write a creative piece we are always told “Write from what you know” or “use previous experiences to make it more realistic”. Well how can I be such a good English student – and I am in no way trying to come off as narcissistic, but my marks do back me up – when I do not have the experience to back my stories? In honest truth, I try and avoid writing about love for school at all costs. Not that I can’t write about it, I just try and avoid the topic of love within the school environment – it’s simply too personal to share with some of my teachers, it just causes and awkward atmosphere with the teachers. 

That isn’t even the point I’m trying to get to, it’s just some background about me and some insight into my mind and how it works. Now to the real point.

I have never experienced love, how can I write love stories? How can so many of my poems, songs and even the book that I am in the process of writing, be based on something that I have never felt before? The honest truth is that I feel things on a different level to most other people. When I read a love story, I fall in love along with the main character. When people approach me with relationship advice, I relate, understand and sympathise – and then I can help them by guiding them and hopefully resolve the issue at hand.

It’s not that I’ve physically experienced it, but I have experienced it, on a different level. I relate to love, I understand love, I have loved and I love today. I love writing, I love my family, I love my creativity, I love my uniqueness. I even loved a boy once – that didn’t end well.

So yes, you have to write based on experience, but who defines what that experience must be. Just because I’ve never had a boyfriend, kissed a guy, been in love and gotten it back doesn’t detract from the other experiences that I have with love. Who dictates that love must be a common relationship, boy meets girl, they fall in love and live happily ever after. And yes, that may be what I do write about, but I’ve never experienced it. I write about the type of love that I write in order to experience that kind of love. But I don't mind that I haven't had those experiences, my day will come. And I’m happy with the experiences that I have had.

I’ve experienced love in my own, unique ways – and I’m proud of that.

 

I am proud of who I am and what I have achieved.

I am proud of what I write.

 

I am proud of being a non-conformist lover.